these freshmen are off the hook!

i love being somewhat of an mentor to the incoming freshmen. they are so excited about starting college and its just so cute. most of all, helping them make the right decisions and giving them tips what i love most only because i don't want them to walk into this university oblivious to the fact of what could possibly go down at the time of their arrival. i love that they are so excited about college but i'm pretty embarrassed of our university at times... especially when they don't treat the freshmen as top priority. its almost as if they carrying it as "oh well i got your money now... so whatchu want" type of vibe. so many of them are having issues as a FIRST TIME student at bowie. i thought we were to welcome our new students and assist them with their full attention.... admissions need to realize that WE PAY THEM and they just need to DO BETTER. i really do hope all works out for them.

i'm just as confused as you are!

okay, so i have this friend. i don't know what happened but one day i go to hit her up on facebook, and i noticed she deleted me as a friend. i have NO CLUE as to why soooo i go to text her [TWICE, one day and again the next] and she didn't reply. the 3rd day i called, she sent me to voicemail after 2 rings so i called again and then left a voicemail and never got an response even up til this day. i just want to know what i did to offend her and as i'm trying to get to the bottom of what happened, she completely ignores me. if she threw away the friendship we had than so be it, i don't care because we wasn't that close or anything. what is blowing me is not knowing the mistake i made in order to even go back and correct it for future references. to be honest, i have much more on my plate than to be worrying about this but i just want to know what i did so i won't offend someone else but doing whatever i did next time. thats it! OMG why am i worried about this!!! this is so random and yet, so confusing.

WHATS FUNNY TO ME IS, i don't know why she assumes that she's not going to see me on campus this upcoming semester... whatever. #ontothenextone.

new hair do by FABULOCS natural hair gallery!

chillin with my bestie! && missin the other bestie!

chilled this week with my bestie & college roommate, ANGEL. i was gonna spazz out on bowie state if they didn't place us as roommates again this year. kinda blown that my shoes [below] didn't ship to my house early enough before we went out on friday... i thought they were cuuuuute! only $27 and i am fine with that. #hello [gojane.com].

allllso..... i can't wait until me, angel, and khristina reunite. i miss her so much!!!!!! we are so close and i can't believe she's graduating this spring. what am i gonna do without her???! she live so far and it sucks because i can't even afford to visit her in GA. she'll be here on the 29th so we'll party hard before the semester starts. #cheerstothefreakinweekenddrinktothatyeeeeeeeaaah [haha]...

i love my hubby so much!!

spent time with my baby cakes the last couple of days! he stayed with me the last to days while my folks went on a cruise. i hate where i live and i live in the hood. but he kept me safe in his arms and i slept peacefully. i dont know what i would do if anything were to happen to him. i worry about him so much more every since i got in that accident. i already don't have alot of family as it is. only my grandparents and my dad... i'm not too close with my mom and birthdad. i wish i was but i feel like a step child to one and nonexistent to the other. long story but i don't see a change happening any time soon so i just rather stand beside to those that make me relevant in their lives. my fiance, my dad, and my grandparents. to me, thats all i have. i just can't wait tot start my future with him. first i want us to graduate, get our first apartment, get married, eventually get a house, and have a new addition to our home: a puppy! [HA, guess you thought i was gonna say a baby!] most importantly, i just wanna get away from this area... 

so im kinda blown . . .

i'm officially moved back home for the mean time. i will be moving back to campus at the end of this month. but im kinda sad that my wireless internet at home is too weak to upload videos. i'm so backed up on videos, its CRAZY! arrrrgh!

i hope something works out soon!

busy busy busy

ihatepacking.com #thatisall lol. in the process of moving my stuff off campus into my house. NOT TO MENTION, we gotta move back in again on aug 26th anyway because im stayin in the same building. just different room. i haven't packed and unpacked since my sophomore year but unfortunately same bedroom requests were not guaranteed this year. this is DUMB.

back to packing.

i caaaan't with these fake folk.

people have been acting really weird to me lately. or am i realizing how fake people can be these days? this is why i hate letting people in on the "real" me, letting them in on my personal life. this is why i keep people at a distance. not that i have been bad mouthing anybody lately, but i also realized that it aint but too many people you can tell your business too without the game of telephone being played. can't trust nobody these days . . . #knowwhoyourrealfriendsare

hbcu pride: its a BULLDOG nation.

as many problems i know my school has, i will always and forever be a bowie state bulldog. #imjustsaying

late night thoughts + random photo

random photo [taken a while back doing laundry with the hubby]

i really need to be asleep for real. buuuuuuuuuuuut i'm about to go to sleep. i vowed to start going to church on time from now on. usually i would go only to listen to the Word because i'm not interested in the other stuff like praise and worship. is it bad that i consider myself a private praiser? meaning, i like to sing and worship in my car on my way to and from church. i don't know .... also i honestly don't like when the pastor says "tell 2 or 3 people this and that.", "turn to your neighbor and say ...." i know that its just to get the church body to interact with each other and to create a family oriented environment but i don't like people touching/hugging on me and i don't like talking to people i don't know. i just joined the church in january but i'm like that with just about everybody i come across for real. "I DON'T KNOW YOU". lol... maybe i gotta change that because i think it turns a lot of potential friendships away. if it were a situation where i am working on a project or having a group discussion with people, i'd be more willing to talk because i'm great on taking initiative, giving ideas, and creative thoughts only because that's just the leader in me but i feel comfortable just being by myself if i'm in a room with a room full of people that i don't know. ALSO church service is early to me, i'd probably be a lot more alert if it were a little later and then maybe i will seem more approachable and willing to interact with others. i mean, who knows.... God knows how i feels about him and thats all that matters.

look at me now . . .

#stuntin #lookatmenow

i am ELATED to announce that i have a new car! i have been so blown over the last 2 weeks because i had to rely on my fiance and my folks for transportation but not anymore! its a nice vehicle too! i am really grateful because i experienced new "adult like" issues: filing claims with insurance companies, how to shop for a car the right way, what to look for when test driving a vehicle, making sure i ask questions and give honest opinions, if the sales representative wasn't confident in what he was trying to sell me then i knew to shop elsewhere, etc. i mean things like that were a MUST because being so that i am a female, i just knew they would try to sell me just anything. life is great now and getting better. it was hard getting this far into a new vehicle but i made. my hubby helped out a lot too and my folks was able to let me borrow money for down payment. . . . but i made it! the vehicle model will remain nameless because of some issues that had happened in the past. no one needs to know what i am driving but i don't mind sharing this exciting news on my blog because i am happy about it. #noshade

definition of a "friend"

angel

khristina

a friend will tell you if you have a booger. if you look busted. if your tracks are out of line. if your breath stank. if you they can see your bra through your shirt. if you did something that was not right, will sympathize with you, pay you back money if they ever borrowed it, give their honest opinion even if its something you don't want to hear, tell you if you need to put on a deodorant. a friend WON'T use you for their benefit, subtweet on twitter about you, talk about you behind your back, show off because company is around, or lie to you in front of your face. these are true qualities i look for in a friend and i cherish my two buttfaces. :) :) :)

angel - my pocket full of awesomes. i can't believe we have been friends this long. i am lucky to have you in my life. your shyness actually helped me calm down at times even though i often complained of you being so quiet. we talk about everything and i love hanging out with you. i love that you have been my roommate for 2 going on 3 years and we never butted heads about anything. we're tight and no one can break our bond! love you!

khristina - my little zeta friend lol (your name is in blue, HA) omg, your randomness brightens up my day. i love that we can talk about everything and the advice you give always comes up being the case in its occurrence. your wisdom is great and you're really family oriented. hell, even my dad and grandparents love you. its funny how we can think of one word to describe each situation and it sparks this whole conversation. you have an awesome talent: singing. i know that you will go beyond karaoking at applebee's. they miss you! you are a bright young lady [ugh, i sound old] and you have success written all over you. i am glad to have met you. love you!

aww, *tear* the semester needs to hurry up and start for real. i'm getting all emotional. without these two chicks, these are all the friends i have and thats because "friend" is not a word that i use loosely. its a lot of action that comes with that word when you use it. . . be mindful of who y'all hanging with and that's for real.

great news!

the last two weeks that i been thru was hell! all bad things were happening across the board. but in the midst of my wonderful day today i found out some awesome information! my financial aid finally came through, i will be changing my major to child and adolescent studies so i can hurry up and graduate, i feel confident than ever of buying my new car tomorrow from all that car shopping, i get paid on wednesday, i am glad that i have a clearer vision on what type of friends that i am looking for and who i choose to keep around me, and i realized that i don't mind being the "outcast" because i feel proud that i don't have to mimic what other people do in order to fit in. [and there's a whole lot more of where those last two that i mentioned came from]. i feel like instead of folks "feeling sorry for me" when they see me not associating with everybody, they need to be worried about if people are doing the same to them. #imjustsaying but in all seriousness, i like giving people the cold shoulder and shying away from others for one reason only, i don't like fake people up in my face. but see, folk tend to treat the situation like nothing happened and that don't sit well with me. all in all, what i am sayin is, i refuse to let people steal my joy and best believe that what happened, let that be the last time that happen again.

#backtoregularlyscheduledprogramming: CAR SHOPPING TOMORROW WITH THE BOOSKI!!

aww yay!

today i have had an excellent day. i have a better attitude and outlook on life lol... i wish i had more days like this. tomorrow hopefully will be even greater because i will be car shopping! && hopefully we'll have a winner. *cross fingers*

mini faces of me . . .

some random collage i made of myself. [bored.com times infinity]...

soon to be Mrs. Matthews . . .

i couldn't ask for a better hubby. my handsome is so sweet! i love him with everything and i know that he can always be there for me even through my hardest times. 3 and a half years and still going strong. can't wait until we get married. we are engaged and i love it! i don't even tell girlfriends about my relationship in depth . . . you live and you learn. ;)

quick facts about us: we're both 23, met in november 2007, started dating december 2, 2007, engaged february 16, 2008, and we both love the flat pieces of chicken wings, not the drumsticks. arrrgggh!

think happy thoughts . . .

okay so i'm tryin not to walk around this joint with a bad attitude but people be throwing me off with their fake acts. on the other hand, i miss my besties! can't wait until we do happy hour and karaoke again and our random trips to the mall [when i have money]. but as of right now what i am looking forward to the most is the smell of my new car! i cannot wait.

[rewind] on 4th of july i was in an accident [while in traffic - which what pissed me off the most] when a dude ran into the back of my car from a distance. it was clear that this dummy wasn't paying attention because the impact caused me to go to the hospital. some things lead me to become skeptical of him because he didn't want me to call the police after we pulled over. it just so happened to be my first accident and i wanted someone there to oversee all transactions so i won't forget to jot down important information from him. but that is neither here or there because my vehicle is totaled.

but my car is on its way, i can feel it. i already have my down payment, its just i have been so busy with my temporary job that i haven't gotten time to go car shopping with my hubby [the co-signer]. but i will be doing that all thursday so i'm excited. i already know what car i want: either a chevy colbalt or chevy aveo. i want a red either one of those.

pray for me. :)

"fake"

fake is not apart of my character. i don't like fake people. fake is most commonly used directly between females and coincides with drama, which is not my cup of tea. i only have two best friends in the result of fake-ness. friends are kept to a minimum for various reasons: because i don't do drama. i want no parts of it.

finally a place where i can speak my mind.

i kinda regret having the amount of followers and friends that i do on facebook and twitter. i find it hard to express myself the way i really want to because of so many people that i know paying close attention to me. [pastor, teachers, families, etc.]